To expand it so that even more Love can flow through it. They love me and I love them but life moves on. But I think the biggest reason I can't seem to love myself is that I can't meet my own needs: I have barely any physical intimacy or romance in my life. I'm unhappy because of me. It scares me. Maybe you all could post some specific examples of why you love yourself? It moves Emotion. Meeting new people or joining a club won’t make anything better. My depression got so crippling I didn't even want to arrange band practices. I don't blame women for not wanting me. single. I've thought about massage as a way to get some form of physical touch, but I'm not comfortable going places other than the grocery store during lockdown. Apart from my job and creative endeavors I wanted a family. If I make it to then. Once I forgave myself for that. I've only seriously considered it a few times when things got really bleak. Physical intimacy scares me. it annoys me, my bedroom is my "comfort/safety zone". I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I literally hit rock bottom and I couldn't control myself. ― Ralph Waldo Emerson I'm also guilty of promoting self love quite heavily and until recently, I didn't realise just how isolating that can be for those who feel like they just can't love themselves. 2:07 - i have love for everyone but myself 3. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. And the truism does exude a tone of wise, loving self-compassion. When I think of myself with someone else. We all have our stories of the straight girl/guy/best friend we fell in love with who just never returned our feelings and broke our hearts. 1) Start small. Like any regular guy I watch porn and masturbate. I cannot imagine someone loving me after seeing the real me. We often get so caught up in whether we’ll ever find love, if we’ve had it and let it slip between our fingers, or if we have it right now and just don’t know it. I'm sorry if this is a creepy post. I didn't like myself before then too, but atleast I had childhood innocence and the world seemed brighter and I felt like there were more possibilities. I used to hate myself so much that I would physically harm myself and whenever I looked in the mirror, I would cry a … you brave wonderful woman. Xxxx. I can’t no longer ignore it. Press J to jump to the feed. I'm not sure what will happen. Hear me out you depressed soul as i understand your feelings as i have gone through the similar situation and i believe many in this world have too. Those are things I can and do love about myself. I just don't know whether to try and wait it out or assume it'll never get better. I've lost lots of weight but relapse. Denial in thinking that things will be better and denial in thinking that I'm worth something. I express my love, appreciation, and affection to my friends and family so much more now and I even enjoy being around them more. They deserve better. My heart changed, and while I can honestly say I still love my husband, I’m not sure I’m still “in love” with him. I don't really hate myself, but I don't love myself either - I feel neutral about it. Now wonderful wife and daughter and still the same daemon as in I am the one holding myself back with negative imaging. It sounds worse when I shorten it. It didn't use to be as bad but from the time I went into college I've gained over 100 pounds leaving me now at the heaviest I've ever been. Every day since I was 14. I never blamed anyone else for my romantic failings. I know most friendships from when you're young don't last but truthfully I feel as if things are finally winding down in that department. I feel like if ever someone actually wanted to be with me I'd just be inadequate and disappoint. A common theme among men who can’t seem to find girlfriends is they're terrible with women. I suppose in a way it was denial. It’s been 11 years and I’ve taken meds for depression but meds can’t help the pain I feel. Pretty soon people start to see that, and You love myself more each day. I know in a few years, less if the weight gain increases, my knees and back will start to hurt and a myriad of other negative drawbacks. I used to eagerly await and even review new releases and now I don't listen to music even a tenth of the amount I used to. "OK, you made a mistake. I don't deserve to move on from any of the bad things I have going on. I've tried a million things, but I recently talked to a close friend about it, and we basically came to the conclusion that the prerequisite for all the advice she was giving was that I needed to love myself. My hand is damaged right now and I can't type fast. I used to lay awake in bed and listen to albums and just feel this euphoria. This really hits home. So I guess I have a hard time seeing why I should love myself - I've only got a few things going for me and I'm terribly awkward around most people. I've lost about 15 pounds in the last few weeks due to diet alone which is good but I feel like I'm about to relapse again. For the longest time I wanted to seriously pursue one of my bands or a career in music/audio production but things didn't go that way. A big hug. I don't think I'd want to kill myself atleast not until my parents pass which will hopefully be in a long long time. Watch your reactions when you think "I can't love myself… The rejection hurt but in time it too became numb. The one thing that kept me going was music. We were very happy to start off, but we drifted apart when we started college, she wanted to be an actress and I … I've been married for 21 yrs but I can't stop thinking about an old girl friend of mine. I don't think I'm good enough. I used to try. I used to go to class and atleast distract myself with that but now I just lay in bed for hours and cry. And don't even get me started on intimacy. "Oh, that person loves themselves - no wonder they act the way they do!". I feel like my entire life has been a waste. Quite simply, if you can’t seduce a woman, the odds of falling in love aren’t exactly in your favor. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. All I see is someone so hideous and unlovable. Thanks for this article. Of course, that doesn’t mean it won’t happen in the future, which is why this is something you need to read. If you have any of these problems, it might be worth asking yourself if you’re even capable of love. I can't love myself. It's hard to get over any breakup — let alone one with a person you thought you would be with forever. Started with magic morning just now and lots of meditation. Alana September 24, 2015 at 12:27 pm # Jaye! When we came to the conclusion that I needed to love myself, I had never really thought about the idea before and it blew my mind to realize that a bunch of other people love themselves and that's why they're so successful in life. And sure, masturbation exists, but the human body and mind need physical touch from other humans. I think I'm pretty funny with close friends, but I have terrible social skills with anyone else, despite trying to get better (and hating the process). I didn't like myself before then too, but atleast I had childhood innocence and the world seemed brighter and I felt like there were more possibilities. Not an unhealthy amount. These are a few of the tips I offer patients, as well as ones that I've used myself when I was in the grips of serious depression. I am sending you a love award and hoping that other redditors are able to offer you more support. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. And this isn't just a lockdown thing - when people have been complaining about not having sex during lockdown, I chuckle to myself because it's completely normal for me to go twice as long as this lockdown without sex. We were touching at all times. That's why, once a relationship stops making us … When I was little I wanted to do and be so much. Denial again. I cannot imagine someone seeing my inner worth when I struggle to see it myself. 1. I'm just sick that I can't undo this. Sending you my love, (because I can’t send it to myself!) Energy in motion. But I just don't know what to do. It is so bad, I've limited myself to the upstairs & mostly my bedroom, I hate leaving my room, even to 2 the restroom. We love each other and we love most things about the life we've built. We (humans) have gone corrupt not recently but more than 1000s of years ago. (disclaimers: 1. before you say I should see a therapist - I do. I've thrown up once out of nervousness, and disgust out of myself. It took time for me to understand, both those things about myself and about what self-love looks like for me. Its my fault. I haven't written in months. My only friends are from when I was in school. I have family and friends that love me. –evolving_I I was luckily never seduced into Nice Guy and Incel rhetoric. I cannot imagine someone being happy with me when I’m such a mess inside and out. And the worst part? 2. I play guitar. I think about suicide alot. I feel like an utter loser who can’t do anything with their life, except for pitying myself. I'll always know. I got myself out of there, and began the process of ending it. Before you say sex isn't a need, it is. Hailee Steinfeld – Love Myself (Official Video)Download The Song! To open it more. Long post: TW: Suicide, Self-hate, Eating disorder. 4 years ago. So I guess I have a hard time seeing why I should love myself - I've only got a few things going for me and I'm terribly awkward around most people. Peer support for anyone struggling with a depressive disorder. Not for a one night stand let alone for marriage. There are so … Part of that is Covid. I used to be able to make friends. But I think the biggest reason I can't seem to love myself is that I can't meet my own needs: I have barely any physical intimacy or romance in my life. I write music. Press J to jump to the feed. “Make the most of yourself....for that is all there is of you.” I'll keep trying. I'm becoming numb to it. I don't think I've lost hope. I haven't made a new friend since highschool. I don't think I'd be a good dad. You can’t imagine anyone daydreaming about you when they get bored at work. I resent my father but in a lot of ways I'm becoming like him. Sometimes people can’t love, whether it’s because of something from your past or just the way you’re wired. Things didn't really pan out. I've had a long storied history with dating and relationships. I am 25 years old and struggle with erectile dysfunction. When thinking about your problem, I don’t think you can’t love, I think you are just trying to love … I’ll never be happy again. You are most certainly NOT defective or alone in these feelings at all. My future for now seems to be finishing my bachelor's degree and finding a job so I can eventually move to some shitty apartment far away so my family and friends don't have to watch me deteriorate. Really she was more to me than just my girlfriend, she was the first true love of my life. 0:00 - bubblegum 2. Finding joy in what I do with my time every day, having a relentless sense of humor about any and every. If you read this, thank you. Used to ask people out, go out and meet people, online dating etc. I feel like it's a long story and people won't understand if I just shorten it. It's first on the list of maslow's hierarchy, and speaking personally, the lack of it distracts from everything else in my life. I could start interrupting the "I fucking hate myself I want to die You're a fucking idiot You can't do anything right you fucking retard" chorus that had occupied my skull for years. I've just accepted that in all likelihood I'll fail again, like I always have. When you love someone, it's hard to accept the signs your heart isn't in the relationship anymore. I have been working hard all my life hoping some time that I would love myself. I know we're supposed to value and love ourselves. I'm just so upset with myself. I feel like I don't deserve to lose it. I cannot imagine someone being attracted to the parts of me that I have always wished I could change. They have their own lives. You can’t imagine anyone ever falling for you, because it’s never happened before. You are changing the world. Unfortunately, there is no real way to speed up the recovery process. I loved it so much. I'm me. Tonight was a very dark night for me, and when I was done, I wanted to kill myself. I feel like crying. It is also a subreddit to share your helpful and civil ideas, tips, and advice on how others can improve themselves. At this point I don't have anything to offer pretty much anyone. And I don't really know how to do that. It seems completely reasonable that we can’t really know love until we experience it from within—for ourselves. ... help Reddit App Reddit coins Reddit premium Reddit gifts. Cookies help us deliver our Services. Undying love. Hope your hand gets better soon. I have a job. I spent half the week in his dorm, and he spent half the week in my off-campus apartment. I used to have a really high sex drive but it has waned as well. I've written so much material and yet not even a single actual release because I don't have the drive or commitment to record my music. For a long time, I've always felt like there's something wrong with me because I've never been in anything even close to a relationship (despite wanting and trying), yet everyone I know seamlessly gets into relationships whenever they want to. I can't tell … I am very successful in my career, so I've got that. But … I have been to my doctor for tests and am relatively healthy. I felt as if my life was over because of the hours I spent in a VERY dark world. I don’t trust you. as far as the being in love with your straight best friend it sucks, and as much as it hurts it is unfortunately a right of passage for all gay people. There are people who believe that loving someone until the end of time is a virtue and pride themselves on never giving up loving a partner, even if the relationship is over. I fell last week and have a cast on my wrist. I can’t kill myself. This subreddit is for those who have questions about how to improve any aspects of their lives, from motivation and procrastination, to social skills and fitness, and everything in between. I've struggled with trying to become healthier and coping with an eating disorder. I relieve you of the burden to approve of me, because I am already Accepted. ), More posts from the selfimprovement community. I'm lucky. This is one of the reasons why I wanted to share this post. I think most people don't talk about physical touch needs because they satisfy their needs most of the time so they don't think about it. Nothing will ever change that. Now not so much. And every break it has ever had has only been there to tear it wider. Those are things I can love about myself. I feel like my social prowess has atrophied. I'm 22 now. Since we had that talk, I've been trying to love myself. I've struggled with depression since I was about 14. I say this a lot here, but -- watch it when you meditate. A stream of energy that I can’t keep. You're still alive. I'm still wrapping my head around the idea of loving myself even if I can't meet my physical intimacy or romantic needs. I used to feel this ache in my belly to write and play and record and now its nothing. I don’t want to live if my child can’t. And yet sometime between then and now, my feelings changed. 4:49 - cody banks 4. That hopefulness that I'd lose weight, and record an EP, and go out and meet new people and date and have fun experiences... it was all just denial. ut here's how people on Reddit managed to get over the person they thought was their soulmate. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. i have love for everyone but myself all track are by barnes blvd. I've struggled with depression since I was about 14. If I did, I would've done something about it by now. I've lost alot of friends who do not understand this, and a relationship. The last few months have been bad. Watch your reactions when you try to force the love. I hope no one feels this way. I think I'll eventually die and it will hopefully be alone and no one will get hurt. Can’t hold tight onto it. I'm a ball of anxiety that has a bunch of needs that I can't meet, that I never asked for anyway. Why would I love myself? People who are in a relationship with a person who cannot love should realize that this has nothing to do with them. I know I've done lots of good things in my life but I can't get past this at the moment. I just felt even more upset and disgusted with myself. The truth is it feels like I'm lying to myself. I can get an erection but can’t maintain it during intercourse. A wife and kids to settle down with and raise. I'm ugly and overweight. It's sort of like when I realized that not everyone has anxiety, and how nice that must be to live without it. And now I can feel it starting to take its toll on my body. 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